Ramadhan Repost: 8th Ramadhan

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem

Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wa astaghfirullah. Time do flies and its Ramadhan already! Masha Allah. So many things had happened these past few years since my ramadhan posts (refer to posts in year 2008) and masha Allah, I do missed those days tremendously. Now, I need some clorox to cleanse my dead heart. O'Allah, please accept my tawbah. Rabbigh firly wa tub 'alayya innaka anta-tawwabur raheem.

O'Allah, please cleanse my heart

Wash all the filth away and change my dead heart

make me alive again, give me a fresh start

so change my heart please and wash the filth away

don't leave me drowning here alone and astray

I spent my life running away from You

and now I have nowhere to turn except to You

I turn to You and begging You to be saved

and change me into the obedient slave

I have been doing all my life what I craved

Syaitan and nafs have always held me enslaved

I am ashamed that I have broken Your rules

worshipped my nafs and be an ignorant fool

But now I know the path leading me to deen

I bow to you and asking You to help me

I wish your name (asma al-Husna) to be engraved in my heart

I will be grateful to You - change this dead heart

My heart is dark and so my eyes remain dry

Hypocrisy and hubris wont let me cry

I am at Your door, I am begging You let me in

not push me back to my hopeless life of sin

So change my heart and forgive my sins these days

not leave me drowning here alone and astray

wash all the filth away and change my dead heart

make me alive again, give me a fresh start

"dan hendaklah kamu memohon ampunan kepada Tuhanmu dan bertaubat kepada-Nya, niscaya Dia akan memberi kenikmatan yang baik kepadamu sampai waktu yang telah ditentukan. Dan Dia akan memberikan karunia-Nya kepada setiap orang yang berbuat baik. Dan jika kamu berpaling, maka sungguh, aku takut kamu akan ditimpa azab pada hari yang besar (kiamat)"

[Hud 11:3]

Wallahua'lam

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam

The Coolness of Our Eyes

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

I seldom make announcement but masha Allah, tabarakallah! I am announcing this with the hope of anyone who reads this make silent du'as of blessings and baraqah for us. Insya Allah. Subhanallah, how time flies leaving us with droplets of memories from yesteryears, making us gaze and wonder at the Greatness and Perfectness of Allah azzawajalla. After 9 months of carrying a living creature inside of my womb, I finally gave birth to a baby boy on the 14th of Rajab 1432Hijra (Friday). Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah who have created us from nothing into a complete human being with responsibilities as an 'abd and a khalifah in this fana world!

Ahmad Jad Alhaq Bin Husni Mubarak

Rabbana hablana min azwajina wa dzurriyatina qurrata'ayun, waj'alna lil muttaqeena imama (Our Lord! Bestow on us from our spouses and our offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and make us leaders for the righteous)

[Al-Furqan:74]

And We have commended unto man kindness toward parents. His mother beareth him with reluctance, and bringeth him forth with reluctance, and the bearing of him and the weaning of him is thirty months, till, when he attaineth full strength and reacheth forty years, he saith: My Lord! Arouse me that I may give thanks for the favour wherewith Thou hast favoured me and my parents, and that I may do right acceptable unto Thee. And be gracious unto me in the matter of my seed. Lo! I have turned unto Thee repentant, and lo! I am of those who surrender (unto Thee); Those are they from whom We accept the best of what they do, and overlook their evil deeds. (They are) among the owners of the Garden. This is the true promise which they were promised (in the world).

[Al-Ahqaf:15-16]

P/S: The pronunciation of my son's name is Ahmad Jaadalhaq, but as Malaysians tend to give unmeaningful nicknames for kids (i.e. Yusuf - Usop), my husband and I purposely put the spelling of my son's name in Malay as Ahmad Jad Alhaq so that he can either be called Ahmad, Jad or Haq (especially by his teachers in the future). May Allah bless us all and shrouds us with His Rahmah and bountiful Blessings. Ameen.

Wallahua'lam
All praise be to Allah, Lord of the universe

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Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem

Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

I had a chat with my father a few days ago
And he raised a very good question

Why is it that we always question and scrutinize people who (try to) do good deeds rather than encouraging them? And what is more weird and funny is the fact that we did not try to emulate the good deeds but create 'logical' reasons to feed our ignorance and heedlessness.

And there are so many (other) people doing all the bad deeds and emulating sins from others around us but we did not even bat an eyelid (let alone try to excercise the sunnah of amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar - refraining sins and encouraging goodness).

I agreed with my father because iman is something that you feel and is so abstract that logical reasonings are not applicable to explain the feeling of the sweetness of iman. And if these commentators don't have any 'ilm on what they are commenting on, they should know better than commenting bluntly without understanding why others do it.

Astaghfirullah hal azheem

Welcome to the confused and secular society
Where we are the product of liberalism and secularism without us realizing it

Because, if we don't understand something
We should seek the answers in the right manner (and the right intention)
And sometimes we'll never get the answers
Because our mind and soul are not ready yet to experience it
Whether we like it or not

But we should never stop seeking with sincere intentions
Because it will lead us to the truth
And the hikmah of Allah's creations and answers to all its mysteries
And then, will only you understand and feel the sweetness of iman and the meaning of brother/sisterhood in islam

(P/S: I am talking about people's ignorance of the religion and how sometimes when people says something bad about their brothers and sisters in islam who are trying to practice islam - though there might be some weakness here and there, they are actually mocking their deen without realizing it. And this is a reminder to myself too, who is not free of sins and is has many weakness)

And I am saying this not to offend anyone, but because I love my brothers and sisters in islam, and I want them to understand that in islam, when you love, you love people just like how you love yourselves. And I do love all of you for the sake of Allah.

Wallahua'lam
All praise be to Allah, Lord of the Universe

Have You Ever?

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang berdakwah?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang hidupnya bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk menyampaikan kefahaman tentang islam kepada manusia di mana saja mereka berada?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang amat merendah diri tetapi amat bersemangat apabila ingin melaksanakan sunnah dan berbicara tentang Rasulullah s.a.w serta al-Quran?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang akan membuatkan anda teringat akan akhirat dan mati?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang sentiasa mengingatkan anda kepada Allah dan kadangkala (dalam diam) membuatkan ada berasa malu dengan dosa anda yang lepas (atau sekarang)?
...

Jika anda telah berjumpa dengan mereka, maka hendaklah anda jangan meninggalkan mereka. Mohonlah untuk bersama dengan mereka kerana anda akan merasakan kenikmatan iman yang tiada tandingannya. Sentiasalah bersama dengan mereka agar anda juga mendapat tempias iman yang dikurniakan kepada mereka.

Jika anda belum berjumpa lagi dengan mereka ini, maka berdoalah dan simpanlah niat untuk dapat berjumpa dan mengenali mereka (walaupun sebentar) kerana mereka adalah ibarat permata yang tersimpan dan menunggu waktu untuk bersinar di hadapan Allah di akhirat kelak.

Ketika usrah bertasbih

"Allahumma nawwir qulubana binuri hidayatik, kama nawwartal Ardha binurisy syamsik, abadan, abada birahmatika ya Arhamar Raheemin" (Ya Allah terangilah hati-hati kami ini dengan cahaya hidayah-Mu, seperti Engkau terangi dunia ini dengan cahaya matahari-Mu, buat selama-lamanya, dengan rahmat-Mu Wahai Pengasih paling mengasihani antara semua pengasih)

Wallahua'lam
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam

Don't Be Sad

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem

Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Wahai Tuhanku, aku berlindung padamu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah, dan aku berlindung pada-Mu dari sikap pengecut dan bakhil, dan aku berlindung pada-Mu dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan manusia
[HR Abu Dawud]

Sabr & Shukr

Note: This post is not related to all those fitnahs on cults i.e wahabbi, syi'ah, sunni etc. I took this as the words said are good reminders for us. May Allah guide us to the straight path. Insya Allah.

Wallahua'lam
Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam

Love, Love, Love

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem

Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

O'Allah, love our mother like how they love us! You are the Bestower of Love.

It is reported that one of the righteous people was passing through the street when he saw an open door out of which came a boy who was crying and weeping, followed by his mother who was pushing him out. She shut the door in his face and went back inside. The boy went a short distance away, and stood there thinking, but he could not find no other refuge than the house from which he had been expelled and no one else who would care for him as his mother would. Broken-hearted, he went back and found that the door is still locked. So he lay down on the doorstep and went to sleep, with the tear marks still streaking his face. A little while later, his mother came out. When she saw him in this state, she could not help herself. She embraced him, kissed him and started to weep, saying,"O' my son, where did you go? Who would care for you except me? Didn't I tell you not to disobey me and not to make me punish you?" Then she picked him up and went back inside with the boy.

The prophet s.a.w told us: "Allah is more compassionate towards His slaves than this mother towards her child."

This is a tale of love - how much Allah, Your Creator Love You.

Allahumma inni as aluka hubbaka wa hubba mayyuhibbuk, wal amalal-ladzee yuballighuni hubbaka. Allahumma aj-’al hubbaka ahabba ilayya min nafsi wa ahli wa min al-maa-il baarid (Oh Allah, I ask of Your love, and the love of that person who loves You and of those actions which attract Your love. Oh Allah, make Your love greater to me than the love of myself, my family and of cold water)

Wallahua'lam

All praise to Allah, Lord of the world

Make Me Strong

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Ya Hayyu, Ya Qayyum
Birahmatika astargeethu la ilaha illa anta!


Make me strong in this path, ya Qawiyy!

Please Allah, there is no ease except what You make ease. Please Allah. Allahumma nawwir qulubana binuuri hidayatik.

Wallahua'lam
All praise be to Allah, Lord of the world