Monday, 14 November 2011

Changes Happen

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Due to the fact that I now have less time to update, I have moved to tumblr (click) and I hope that I can still be in this journey to Allah until I can meet Him. Insya Allah.

All praise be to Allah, Lord of the world

Saturday, 20 August 2011

The Last 10 Days: Change Now!

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Subhanallah walhamdulillah. How time passes like waterfalls! Now it is already the last 10 days of Ramadhan, where these are the days that we can pray to Allah to be saved from an-naar (the hellfire). Make haste O'dear self!

There are so many things to share but so little time. My dear friends, have you ever felt that you want to find peace, solace and to just be sure about what you are doing in this life? If the answer is yes, then welcome to a journey, where you will embark on the greatest, most beautiful journey of finding your soul, knowing your purpose of life and ways of achieving eternal success.

Oh my, this do sounds like some weird motivational talk. Masha Allah.
Oh well (shrugs)

Start changing now! While we are still young.

However, to find eternal happiness is simple, you have to find Allah. Find God. The One who had created us from nothing. The Most High who Knows everything, even to the numbers of leaves falling from the trees. Subhanallah walhamdulillah. Yet, we still have these unknown feeling of doubting things that are happening around us. The reason is simple, we have to learn more about Allah's creation and acknowledge Allah's greatness. Not that Allah need us to acknowledge Him, but it's for us. because when we acknowledge Allah's Greatness, then will Allah open doors for us to learn all the 'ilms in this world. The prophet s.a.w. once said that if we take a step to learn the knowledge of the dunya and akhirah, Allah will open doors to heaven for us. Masha Allah, tabarakallah! Hence, the second step is to learn. Go out and find a pious teacher. If you have doubts, ask for Allah's help. Ask Allah, make du'as to Allah for a pious teacher. Keep in mind that you must be 110% sure and have faith in Allah's power. If it took a long time while you are journeying to find a pious teacher, be patient. Allah will grant our du'as in many ways. And when you have found a teacher, you have to learn wholeheartedly. This means that there will be things that confuses us, so be brave and ask. Be humble and always make sure that our niyat are crystal clear and we are ikhas. And at the same time, we must be very patient when learning. Knowledge is light, and it will enlighten only those who wants it, who looked for it and who cleanses their heart for it. These are the keys of making sure that the 'ilm that we are learning are actually Guided by Allah through our teachers. And finally, we have to know that these things take time. Because Allah wants us to be among the pious, to be among the cream of the crop of His 'abd.

And insya Allah, I think this is it for now. These are reminders for me, a weak and puny slave in front of Allah. Do make lots of du'as for yourselves, family, the ummah and also for me. Insya Allah, may Allah forgive our sins, guide us to His Light, enlighten our heart and soul, shrouds us with Rahmah and make us among the pious and soleh wa musleh. Ameen.

All praise be to Allah, Lord of the universe

Wednesday, 10 August 2011

10th Ramadhan: Forgiveness

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu


Allahumma innaka 'afuwwun kareem, tuhibbul 'afwa fa'fu anna bi rahmatika ya arhamar-rahimeen
Please Allah, forgive us for our sins and heedlessness. Please Allah, pardon us of our forgetfulness. Please grant us offsprings that are soleh wa musleh. Please give us Your Love. Please forgive us Allah. Please Allah. Save us from the Fire and grant us Your Redha so that we can enter Your Jannah and meet You.

All praise be to Allah, Lord of the world

Monday, 8 August 2011

Ramadhan Repost: 8th Ramadhan

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Subhanallah walhamdulillah wa astaghfirullah. Time do flies and its Ramadhan already! Masha Allah. So many things had happened these past few years since my ramadhan posts (refer to posts in year 2008) and masha Allah, I do missed those days tremendously. Now, I need some clorox to cleanse my dead heart. O'Allah, please accept my tawbah. Rabbigh firly wa tub 'alayya innaka anta-tawwabur raheem.

O'Allah, please cleanse my heart

Wash all the filth away and change my dead heart
make me alive again, give me a fresh start
so change my heart please and wash the filth away
don't leave me drowning here alone and astray

I spent my life running away from You
and now I have nowhere to turn except to You
I turn to You and begging You to be saved
and change me into the obedient slave

I have been doing all my life what I craved
Syaitan and nafs have always held me enslaved
I am ashamed that I have broken Your rules
worshipped my nafs and be an ignorant fool

But now I know the path leading me to deen
I bow to you and asking You to help me
I wish your name (asma al-Husna) to be engraved in my heart
I will be grateful to You - change this dead heart

My heart is dark and so my eyes remain dry
Hypocrisy and hubris wont let me cry
I am at Your door, I am begging You let me in
not push me back to my hopeless life of sin

So change my heart and forgive my sins these days
not leave me drowning here alone and astray
wash all the filth away and change my dead heart
make me alive again, give me a fresh start

"dan hendaklah kamu memohon ampunan kepada Tuhanmu dan bertaubat kepada-Nya, niscaya Dia akan memberi kenikmatan yang baik kepadamu sampai waktu yang telah ditentukan. Dan Dia akan memberikan karunia-Nya kepada setiap orang yang berbuat baik. Dan jika kamu berpaling, maka sungguh, aku takut kamu akan ditimpa azab pada hari yang besar (kiamat)"
[Hud 11:3]

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam

Sunday, 3 July 2011

The Coolness of Our Eyes

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

I seldom make announcement but masha Allah, tabarakallah! I am announcing this with the hope of anyone who reads this make silent du'as of blessings and baraqah for us. Insya Allah. Subhanallah, how time flies leaving us with droplets of memories from yesteryears, making us gaze and wonder at the Greatness and Perfectness of Allah azzawajalla. After 9 months of carrying a living creature inside of my womb, I finally gave birth to a baby boy on the 14th of Rajab 1432Hijra (Friday). Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah who have created us from nothing into a complete human being with responsibilities as an 'abd and a khalifah in this fana world!

Ahmad Jad Alhaq Bin Husni Mubarak

Rabbana hablana min azwajina wa dzurriyatina qurrata'ayun, waj'alna lil muttaqeena imama (Our Lord! Bestow on us from our spouses and our offspring who will be the comfort of our eyes, and make us leaders for the righteous)

And We have commended unto man kindness toward parents. His mother beareth him with reluctance, and bringeth him forth with reluctance, and the bearing of him and the weaning of him is thirty months, till, when he attaineth full strength and reacheth forty years, he saith: My Lord! Arouse me that I may give thanks for the favour wherewith Thou hast favoured me and my parents, and that I may do right acceptable unto Thee. And be gracious unto me in the matter of my seed. Lo! I have turned unto Thee repentant, and lo! I am of those who surrender (unto Thee); Those are they from whom We accept the best of what they do, and overlook their evil deeds. (They are) among the owners of the Garden. This is the true promise which they were promised (in the world).

P/S: The pronunciation of my son's name is Ahmad Jaadalhaq, but as Malaysians tend to give unmeaningful nicknames for kids (i.e. Yusuf - Usop), my husband and I purposely put the spelling of my son's name in Malay as Ahmad Jad Alhaq so that he can either be called Ahmad, Jad or Haq (especially by his teachers in the future). May Allah bless us all and shrouds us with His Rahmah and bountiful Blessings. Ameen.

All praise be to Allah, Lord of the universe

Friday, 10 June 2011


Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

I had a chat with my father a few days ago
And he raised a very good question
Why is it that we always question and scrutinize people who (try to) do good deeds rather than encouraging them? And what is more weird and funny is the fact that we did not try to emulate the good deeds but create 'logical' reasons to feed our ignorance and heedlessness.
And there are so many (other) people doing all the bad deeds and emulating sins from others around us but we did not even bat an eyelid (let alone try to excercise the sunnah of amar ma'ruf nahi mungkar - refraining sins and encouraging goodness).
I agreed with my father because iman is something that you feel and is so abstract that logical reasonings are not applicable to explain the feeling of the sweetness of iman. And if these commentators don't have any 'ilm on what they are commenting on, they should know better than commenting bluntly without understanding why others do it.

Astaghfirullah hal azheem

Welcome to the confused and secular society
Where we are the product of liberalism and secularism without us realizing it

Because, if we don't understand something
We should seek the answers in the right manner
(and the right intention)
And sometimes we'll never get the answers
Because our mind and soul are not ready yet to experience it
Whether we like it or not

But we should never stop seeking with sincere intentions
Because it will lead us to the truth
And the hikmah of Allah's creations and answers to all its mysteries
And then, will only you understand and feel the sweetness of iman and the meaning of brother/sisterhood in islam

(P/S: I am talking about people's ignorance of the religion and how sometimes when people says something bad about their brothers and sisters in islam who are trying to practice islam - though there might be some weakness here and there, they are actually mocking their deen without realizing it. And this is a reminder to myself too, who is not free of sins and is has many weakness)

And I am saying this not to offend anyone, but because I love my brothers and sisters in islam, and I want them to understand that in islam, when you love, you love people just like how you love yourselves. And I do love all of you for the sake of Allah.

All praise be to Allah, Lord of the Universe

Thursday, 9 June 2011

Have You Ever?

Bismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Assalammualaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu

Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang berdakwah?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang hidupnya bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk menyampaikan kefahaman tentang islam kepada manusia di mana saja mereka berada?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang amat merendah diri tetapi amat bersemangat apabila ingin melaksanakan sunnah dan berbicara tentang Rasulullah s.a.w serta al-Quran?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang akan membuatkan anda teringat akan akhirat dan mati?
Pernahkah anda berjumpa dengan mereka yang sentiasa mengingatkan anda kepada Allah dan kadangkala (dalam diam) membuatkan ada berasa malu dengan dosa anda yang lepas (atau sekarang)?

Jika anda telah berjumpa dengan mereka, maka hendaklah anda jangan meninggalkan mereka. Mohonlah untuk bersama dengan mereka kerana anda akan merasakan kenikmatan iman yang tiada tandingannya. Sentiasalah bersama dengan mereka agar anda juga mendapat tempias iman yang dikurniakan kepada mereka.

Jika anda belum berjumpa lagi dengan mereka ini, maka berdoalah dan simpanlah niat untuk dapat berjumpa dan mengenali mereka (walaupun sebentar) kerana mereka adalah ibarat permata yang tersimpan dan menunggu waktu untuk bersinar di hadapan Allah di akhirat kelak.

Ketika usrah bertasbih

"Allahumma nawwir qulubana binuri hidayatik, kama nawwartal Ardha binurisy syamsik, abadan, abada birahmatika ya Arhamar Raheemin" (Ya Allah terangilah hati-hati kami ini dengan cahaya hidayah-Mu, seperti Engkau terangi dunia ini dengan cahaya matahari-Mu, buat selama-lamanya, dengan rahmat-Mu Wahai Pengasih paling mengasihani antara semua pengasih)

Segala puji hanya bagi Allah, Tuhan sekalian alam

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